By Lori Lasseter Hamilton
Wet grass kisses the fish
on Grandma’s patchwork quilt
as I plant her red roses in the ground,
Railroad Park, one fourth of July
while I eat a food truck hot dog
and the orchestra plays patriot songs.
When I was a kid, I’d eat figs
from Grandaddy’s backyard.
Now, a bulb yellow as a lemon
pumps chemo in me
and Mom takes me to eat fried green tomatoes
from a Green Springs meat-and-three.
Mom and Dad sit down to eat
at table with me
and I share tomatoes with them,
breaded, fried in grease.
Talk turns to how Grandaddy
would give his garden tomatoes to them
and Mom would make fried green tomatoes then.
Dad tells me when he was a boy,
he had to lead a mule down a country road,
get out and walk, hold the rope
‘cause the mule couldn’t keep up
while Dad held the rope in Grandaddy’s car.
“Sorry, son, but you’re gonna have to get out of the car.”
Dad showed me where on his hand a scar
used to be, from a pig’s hoof
scratching him as he held the pig down
so Grandaddy could castrate him for better meat.
And the peaches Grandaddy would not spray, Dad said,
but tried selling them on Broad Street anyway
even though from the inside out, a peach worm infested them
the way wild kudzu decayed his backyard
with the scent of rotting grapes.
I wonder if that same kudzu
followed Dad down to Birmingham,
a peach worm and castrated pig caravan
with seething snakes hiding in its tangled vines,
when he was able to escape Gadsden, home
to one hospital, where Daddy’s family
went to die.
Growing up, every day we drove by
a kudzu mountain
on Chalkville Mountain Road
so Mom could drop my sister off
to catch her Shades Valley school bus.
I wonder if, back in the eighties, that castrated pig’s ghost
ever swam in my cousins’ blue swimming pool,
other side of Grandaddy’s garden,
sharpening his hooves, pulling kudzu vines
to pump up his biceps.
Saturday nights at Grandma and Grandaddy’s,
we’d eat figs sometimes
or my aunt’s Mississippi mud pie
as we watched Hee Haw.
At the end of their night,
Roy, Buck, and cast would sing
“May your pleasures be many,
may your troubles be few!”
Oh, if only they knew
I don’t stand a chance
with the Lasseter curse
and the ghost of a castrated pig
gripping me in a kudzu undertow.